A letter for my angels

Dear  Mum, Dad.

If only you can read this, if only I can tell you directly. I have no idea how to say thanks and grateful I am to have parents like you. I know it’s hard, I know you have worked hard for me, and my brother. I don’t want to let you down, never. You support me that much, let me reach my dream. Oh, if only you understand how I love this ‘stuff’, how I love this Allah’s creature. From my very first job until this one, the second, I still could not give you something. Instead of giving what you both want, I am asking more and more. This is so bad for a girl in my age, 25 this year but I still have not got job that you wish. But this is I am, you know, I have another purpose in my life better than collecting money. Oh, you have known it from my youth. I want to make this beauty sustains. I want to be, one who is truly written in Al-Qur’an, a Caliph. When nobody understands, I want you to still stand. When nobody cares, I want to be the survivor.

Sometimes I think out loud, should I give up ? Should I end up ? But the conscience says “ Don’t stop, keep walking”. And I read again Al Qur’an surah Ali Imran : 139 : Do not lose hope, nor be sad. So I wake up again,

Someday I want you to see, that everything you have sacrificed for me, would not be in vain. Thank you for letting me be who I really am come rain or shine. I pray that, I wish Allah grant you thousand favors and Jannah. Amin…..

J